Hey there, everyone.
I am riiiiiiiiiight on the cusp of a fairly grand-ish reopening of sorts. For the last couple weeks, I’ve been laboring to clear a last obstruction that has been getting in the way of things here.
*here*
Literally just here.
I’ll explain the whole thing at some point but for your sake, it’ll be about like getting caught in some major traffic snarl stretching on for miles and then reading in the paper the next day what caused it.
“Tanker carrying load of molasses overturns on I-95; many left stuck after spill”
The molasses of my soul spilled on the roadway of my Substack.
Yeah, that’s not it. I don’t even know what that means. It is definitely not that though.
I’ve had these really irritating thing in the way which I have juuuuuuuuuuuust about gotten cleared. My hope is to have it out of the way by tomorrow…
As soon as I do, it is going to be very much like when a spill blocks a highway and then they finish cleaning it up and reopen all lanes. There is going to be some flowwwwwww. Oh, my god. I am so damn excited for that.
I’m not going to even attempt to go into it here but let me just say, none of what has been going on with me has been what it appeared.
At all.
At all, at all.
The issue has been very specific.
It has had nothing to do with a *private relationship* or what occurred *within that private relationship*.
It has had nothing whatsoever to do with anything that happened in the past.
It has entirely centered on the present and going forward.
It has entirely centered on things that are public not private - which I am neither involved in nor have nothing to do with.
I’ll explain more, just know, the gnashing you’ve been seeing has been the boiling frustration of someone who has been held hostage to a toxic situation I not only did nothing to cause, I tried everything humanly possible to remedy.
The frustration has been pulling against the very last chain holding me hostage after having done everything I need to not just move on with my life, but move on the most healed I’ve ever been in my life.
My distress has been from being chained to toxicity having nothing to do with me but which affects me - over a year after both breaking off a relationship and closing the door on ever reconsidering.
None of this has been what it appeared.
As I work on clearing the last chain - which, again, I’m hoping will be tomorrow, I just wanted to… start talking again… things are about to radically reopen here. I’m chomping at the bit. I just thought I’d open up the channels of communication and get some water flowing even as i clear the last of things.
With that said, comments are open… and I’m also gonna start a chat if you happen to want to pop on by and say hello…
Oh, we have so much to talk about.
Ice cream. Hope you were able to get some ice cream. Rocky road, or would that be too ironic?
I'm excited that you are excited and can't wait to read whatever you have to write.